Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Yes, I've shaved bald and am wearing a wig::~ Please grant me my privacy, thanks so much::~

So::~
Friends and family have been shooting questions::~
And I've been giving it alot of thought::~
I think I should just come out with the truth::~
So here it is::~
I've been having an autoimmune disease ever since I was 12::~
Which causes partial hair loss::~
And I've been recovering well::~
Until last year::~
My condition relapsed and my parents have been urging me to go with the treatment::~
The treatment required me to reduced the amount of hair on my scalp to assist the doctor to monitor my scalp condition::~
That means going almost bald::~
Naturally I've been deny the treatment::~
and had hoped that I would recover naturally like I did::~
After months of urging::~
In favor of my parents wishes::~
I finally decided to start treatment on the 28th July 2009::~
It was my father's birthday::~
The treatment includes lots of cream medications::~
and the worst::~
Shots::~
Or in a more professional term::~
Injections::~
Which is scary at first::~
But my doctor is a skilled manipulator::~
He made me so distracted for my 1st injection::~
It was over before I knew it::~
Haha::~
Then~
To start off the cream medication::~
I had to shave::~
Well::~
Not bald but short enough so most of the cream-based medication would be absorbed by my scalp and not my hair::~
We went out wig-shopping::~
Which was fun, I'd admit::~
Trying out new hairstyles without the permanent effect::~
After choosing the wig::~
I went to meet my doom::~
Oh well::~
I've been prepping myself for ages to do the whole "shaving-thing"::~
And to make things worse::~
The aunty at the salon kept saying that I'm too young to err... have such a daring cut::~
But I had to do it for the treatment::~
Hence::~
I shaved my head like the doctor told me to::~
My mom was trying to distract me from looking at myself in the mirror during the process::~
She was giving me courage really::~
But I caught a glance at the assistant lady who was just chopping off my inches::~
I remembered that my heart just skipped a beat::~
And I felt a sudden chill::~
Just like how I'd feel right before taking the plunge on the Solero Shot::~
And I squeezed my eyes shut and just went back to listening to my mom::~
When it was finally over::~
I checked out my new "do"::~
And I was quite ok with it cuz it didn't look as
bad as I thought it would::~
Well::~
Pros and Cons based::~
The Pros was that it was really really nice to touch~!
The short hair was super soft and smooth::~
Like a baby's head~!
Hehe::~
Well::~
The Cons was that I'm 11 inches short of hair::~
Near bald::~
And a lil shiny all over::~
*sigh*
Anywayz::~
It's been a month now::~
After episodes of breakdowns and staring at myself at the mirror::~
And I wouldn't feel as sad as I was::~
Even when parents are talking about my condition::~
And even if it was about how well I'm recovering::~
I'd used to find an excuse to walk away::~
I'm getting used to it, I hope::~
Now, uni has started::~
The first week was nerve-raveling::~
And I'm sorry if I've been trying to avoid conversation with those who has commented on my new hair "do"::~
I still don't have the courage to talk about it::~
Well::~
Not face to face, yet::~
So I'm telling as much as possible here::~
So I'm asking for you to please understand how I'm feeling::~
And try to avoid the subject, if possible::~

Thank you::~






15 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hey.. I've been reading ur blog for quiet sometime already.. ^^

Just wanted to tell you to, stay strong ya! I'm sure you have great family and friends to support you during this time.. Hope you will get better soon ya..

take care.. ;)

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Anonymous said...

am sorry to hear that...Cheer up! I'm an silent reader of ur blog too..thru reading ur blog i find you're a really nice person :) just thought of leaving a message to wish you a speedy recovery! God Bless!

cheese said...

face it with all your heart! don't care about the physical looking as long as you remember that people around you still loves you as much as they can. god bless you :D

cheers

.o~O*(^.~)*~meLLie~*(^.~)*O~o. said...

Thanks so much for the awesome wishes, you guys~!!!
(^.~) <3
This means alot to me, honestly::~
Cuz I've been so phobic about leaving the house and meeting people::~ (>.<)
But I'm getting much better and my parents are so happy with my recovery::~
Well, I'm just glad that I'm blessed with the support of my loved ones to go through this::~ <3

gingerbread said...

hey stay strong!! u can do it =)

-sinjiang-

Karena said...

ah sou! gosh! you're soooo tough!
no matter what happen u're still my prettiest ah sou k? be strong and get well soon!

*huggies*

Anonymous said...

I am one of your blog readers too. I can't believe it at first when I read your post.

U always seem cheerful. It must be hard to make such decision. I hope you can recover soon.

Stay strong...

Anonymous said...

my friend brought me to your blog. stay strong yeah. be of gd cheer yeah! know that im keeping you in prayers. stay strong beautiful women of god

Sue said...

It takes a lot of courage to go through what you're going through now. And I really admire that courage of yours. Stay strong =)

.o~O*(^.~)*~meLLie~*(^.~)*O~o. said...

Thanks so much for the wonderful soothing comments~! (^.^)<3
I really do appreciate your blessings and prayers::~
I'm doing great and will hope to blog soon::~
For my readers::~
I'm sorry for the haitus cuz I'm still a lil shy with the photos::~ Hehe::~ (>.<)
I'll be thinking of how to continue where I left off::~
Well, once again I'm really thankful for all your well wishes::~
:)

AmburrNicole said...

Aw.. I'm sorry.. I hope it gets way better for you, you're so tough for doing that. :]

CKM said...

Hey mel, how are you doing.

Stay strong!!!

wearing a wig or whatever hairstyle, you're still the hot one *winks*

Just remember, its all gonna come to past...

take care!!

Carmen

Anonymous said...

Gambateh!!!

.o~O*(^.~)*~meLLie~*(^.~)*O~o. said...

Thanks so much, y'all~
(^.~)<3
I'll be blogging soon::~